I really don’t like being sick. I don’t like not knowing why I’m not feeling well. I hate the unknown and uncertainty that comes with it. Can anyone relate to that?
The last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling like I’ve been running on low energy. I’ve progressively been in more pain and super reluctant to go to the doctor (Yes, I know how exactly how silly that sounds). I think I felt that way because I wanted to make sure that something was actually wrong and I’m not just tired and a bit run down.
I finally went to the doctor last week and got some antibiotics. After finishing the course of those, I wasn’t feeling any better. I was feeling much worse.
So I returned to the doctor, got an expensive scan and more antibiotics. I’m just starting to feel better now. I had to take a couple of days off work and spent much of my time lying down because it hurt to be standing up…
I was annoyed that I couldn’t go to work this week because I love my job and I felt like I let the people I work for down. (For those of you who don’t know, I also work part time at a custom T-Shirt printing shop in Fitzroy)
I was also upset because my own personal creative life has been difficult to concentrate on. I know that in any given week I have certain things to finish like sending invoices and finalising my workshop class notes to send out to my students. Living creative career path is really tricky, especially when you feel so unwell!
I’ve only gotten one* of my Middle Aisle jobs done this week.
(*Updating my website with my new Melbourne Macrame Workshops at the end of May.)
I realised this morning, as I burnt the last remaining bit of bread in the toaster, that there was no use beating myself up over being sick or burning the toast. Feeling guilty is a pretty useless emotion.
So I pulled some rope out and made two medium sized Macrame wall hangings. I’ve just spent the last couple of hours fringing the ends of those. Fringing the ends of your Macrame is a lovely little task you can do in bed with a cup of tea and your favourite Netflix reruns. It’s perfect for when you can’t get out of bed.
I felt so lucky to receive such lovely messages from people on my Instagram this week. I also got a lovely surprise when Jemima from Fiddle and Spoon posted another photo of me on her Instagram singing my praises about my plant hanger macrame workshop she came to at See Make Play last month. If you love all things lovely in Melbourne then I think you’ll enjoy her blog here.
Thank you to everyone who sent me their messages of support. I was reminded that even though I’m feeling low, and things might not have gone to plan, I am still pursuing my creative dream.
Following my creative dream was never going to be easy, but I wouldn’t ever want to be doing anything else.
It’s Monday tomorrow, which is exciting! A whole new week to keep working and growing. What have you got planned?
Maggie xx
